[Honest & Unforgiving]

I lost my mo-jo. It's been rainy, I failed my Economics class (okay, I got a B+, but same thing), Wendy's stopped serving sweet tea (oh, prolly mentioned that in an earlier post) - things just ain’t right.

I've lost 1 pound in 2 weeks. Not bad for doing not much. We've changed the way we are eating, so that's a plus.

We didn't make it to the gym this weekend, and since the pool was closed yesterday, there wasn't any point. We did, however, make it today.

And I feel fat.  Wait - scratch that. I. Am. Fat.

There's something about those gym mirrors and other reflective surfaces. Or maybe it's the fact that they put the steam room in the pool area with huge, glass windows and doors so that the firm and perfect men sitting in there can watch us dimply and ample bottom mommies chase our toddlers around. Are they laughing at us? I say us, but really - I mean me. Are they disgusted? I know I am. What happened to my smooth, naturally tan skin? Where did all of the bumps and bright whiteness come from? Why are the bulges underneath my upper arm and not on top where they belong (e.g. biceps) - and why do they INSIST on waving at everyone as I walk by?

What is it about those gym mirrors? Why are the mirrors in my house more caring and loving? Eh, maybe it's because they are located in the loo and only show from my belly-button up. And when I am wearing a good bra - all is good with the world. Well, except for the fact that my low-lying biceps will continue to wave... at my reflection, none-the-less. My reflection's upper-arm droopies are nothing but polite and wave right back.

So, somewhere in the garble up there I mentioned a 'gym' and a 'pool'... We had a good time, again! The kids love the pool and Nico REALLY thinks he can swim (silly tadpole). I need to start his lessons asap. The kid is constantly going under water and jumping right back up (the pool is only 3 feet deep in the section I take him to). He does not know how to float, however. At all. So - that's the first task, I am sure.

Hm.. Food yesterday. A bagel with cream cheese for breakfast, for snack/lunch I had a half of a PB sandwich on whole wheat, with 3/4 cup of Chocolate Cheerios, and a thin slice of cheddar cheese. My real late lunch was a Chicken Wrap at the gym (love how they list the nutritional content and calories on the menu board) and then for dinner I made thin spaghetti pasta with mushrooms, zucchini, spinach, and pork chops cut into cubes (just enough to add a little meat; there were more veggies than anything else). I used a little EVOO to mix it all together and keep the noodles moist - then added a little parmesan cheese and Organic Garlic-Salt-Parsley. It was good! The Husband really liked it.

So, now the only thing that ails me is the fact that I have water stuck in my right ear. It's kinda been a problem ear for a while now - but because of the swimming - there's water in there. How the heck do I get it out of there? I've tried everything... It's sooo annoying!